the paradox that life is like a bed of roses

Wednesday, January 11 Y 1/11/2006 04:45:00 pm

wishin all muslims a belated hari raya haji.

hari raya haji was okayy.
e ambience wasn't a merry n joyous one.
unlike aidilfitri.

i guess a month of fasting, geylang lelongs n bakings of kuih
does enlightens one's mood n brights up e whole occasion.

my family went over to nenek hse.
oh yea if u're wondering, i've only got paternal grandparents.
maternal grandmother passed away a decade ago.
n grandfather.. 3 yrs ago.

so here goes my hari raya haji at nenek hse..
-e usual hari raya delights~
-aunts were busy baking cheesecakes back in e kitchen..
*they bake cheesecakes instead of kuih melayu*
-uncles watching tv n dozing off .. smoking+kopitiam talks.
-younger couzzins running ard.. *shall i call them e irritants?*
-n me? i ended up playing computer games e whole time i was there.

so much for a festive season.
hahs. just look at how we celebrated it.
at least my aunts n uncles didnt resort to mahjong.
or even poker card games.
which is a likely event tt happened in e past years.
how pathetic can e family be on a raya day.

oh lets just skip wat goes next..
it's just a total bore.

i met paris in e evening.
fetched me from home.
accompanied him to shop. *i guess we took turns*

went to isetan scotts to get his wallet.
a pretty fussy buyer i coud say.
he wants a sleek design with a coin slot compartment.
at an affordable cost.

luckily renoma has got a sale.
it's very beautiful indeed.
i mean e wallet. yea.
all e wallet has got his name. *paris*
hahs. lucky him.

we walked ard town.
since most of the shops were closing.
we headed bugis for dinner.
we went to tong seng.
sheesh. i have much dislike on tt place.
it just disgusts me.
n i dunch find it hygienic either.
so tt's e whole reason y i cant swallow e food there.

i did ordered but ended up wasting it instead.
we talked. alot.
we were e only ones left after closing..
but it seems tt we still have so much to talk abt..
it was runnin late..we had no choice but to head for home.

i had a great time talking to him over dinner.
we're not attached. we're just friends.
so we aren't hurting or cheating on anyone bebeh~ =)

oh yea. did i mention tt i went for a midnite movie?
hehs. not yesterday. but on e eve on raya haji.
yeaps. i didnt realised tt there were midnite shows on eves of ph.
we watched derailed. a thriller movie. nice. 3stars. hehs.

im going for dinner with my family. wee.
bro's pay day. so it'll b a fam dinner treat.

emm mite b miting hazwan later.
he wants to c me after dinner.

he told me not to b so bothered abt wat ppl think abt us.
nah. mostly abt him n his no longer beloved design. hahs
well. it's not e 1st time to hear ppl blaming me.
i cant stop those evil mouths n minds.

i told mom abt it.
she told me to ignore it too.
n she said it wud b sucky to b forced to stay wen u can no longer commit.
hehs. clever mom. n e next thing she said...
she prefers if he joins teratai.
reason being it's mostly family n co.
likely to b more understanding n reasonable.
hahs. a wild idea. n e next thing u noe..
i'll b hearing stuffs like 'ikot kate dhiana' ..
not again~

sometimes e ppl whom u think u could at least turn to..
think e otherwise too. so much for being understanding.

oh yea. i need a job. real bad.
rikky n i are thinking of working in libraries.
emm sounds fun.

off to read.

i want tiramisu.