hazwan came over yesterday.
just to help me with e ironing. sheesh.
went kfc for lunch.. talked over some stuffs.
we're happy with e way things are now.
somethings n people just really dunch matter much to me now.

went to semb park to chill.
chill. not hanky-panky.
sat at a nice breezy spot.
we talked.
about things that happened in e past.
i was so keen to knoe e itsy-bitsy details of his.. hahs.
n he ended up mad. n me down.
it was dragged all e way right till drizzles came.
n we had to go homey.
it was just like 10.30. n im home. alone.

but we met again. hahs.
we met at 12.45.
he came down just to teman me for my late dinner.
n den we sat sumwhere mushy-mushying. *giggles*

i felt so bad tt i had to turn sumone down though.
i dunch noe wat i want n wat im doing either.
sorry. there's always a next time.

'it's common sense. we're a group. not a gangsta one.'
err. did i say we were one.
i merely said im not proud. yet?
n yea it's a no biggie. i didnt make it a big issue.
i was just honest n speaking my mind.
just tt. not tt i was unhappy.
well i did mention i was happy of e friendship.

commitments. nah.
it doesnt sounds right.
its more of a must n force loyalty.
all we want is an honest n clean friendship.
n not forgetting willing.
we dunch nid commitments in a frienship.
unless we're in a 'so-called-group'.
it's best not to have commitments.
becos not everyone can commit. n commiting is not easy.

lots of friendship n 'groups' grew apart becos of commitments.
emm. have u not learnt from ur prev friendship..
just becos of a small thing n commitments? .. it breaks apart..
emm. la chicqa dollz as priority in life.
i dunch remmbr saying tt. but well if u're referin to me.
it's not a priority in life.
friendship is essential though.
but not a priority.

it's not too much. but its so sudden.
we agreed to start anew. everything from e beggining.
shouldnt we start it slow n steady.
not jump into a new start of having to face commitments.

mayb khai is right.
i dun think he'll mind if we're just e happy-go-lucky friends
whom we used to b instead of being in dis 'group' or 'clique'.
n yea i dunch go with e flow.
i think before i flow.

mayb to u girls i have a -ive thinking.
but i just wanna b honest tt i cant b proud yet.
n u ppl come to such conclusions.
n i think i still prefer e happy-go-lucky us instead of dis 'group/clique' honestly.
ask urself. are u realli proud of dis?
n do u realli think each n everyone of us in it is proud of it?
what about e others? ana? nana? yani?

sometimes its rather annoying to have sumone to wait for u in love.
becos it gives u e guilty-conscience everytime u think of it.
u just dunch noe wen to give in.
if it's e right thing to do.
n u just cant promise anything yet.

n wen u did something wrong or somehow hurting in tt person's point of view.
so ppl will start saying its not fair at all to e person who's waiting..
n tt u shud spare a thot for tt person's feelings..
so u get e blame.
which is not at all ur fault.
becos there were no promises n nobody asked to wait.
n y isit tt u shud spare a thot for them n not they spare a thot in u.

afterall they had willingly wanted to wait giving u e guilty-conscience all along..
n wen they're hurt u're at fault ?
some ppl really need to wake up.
n realise weather waiting would afterall bring any good to them.
and a nice treatment or frienship does not mean any hope.
so dunt use it as an excuse to blame.
dis is usually a common problem faced by girls.

have u known someone hu has been blinded by love?
whereby even how much they've been cheated or controlled..
it's still e ever-so perfect love.
it sounds more like pathetic rather than perfect to me.

wadduutink?

ok im tired.
tata.