the paradox that life is like a bed of roses

Sunday, May 15 Y 5/15/2005 12:27:00 am

ok. im glad tt he called today.
yeaps. erm. 5 times today. and 3 sms.
hee. im missin him alot.
e gerls went out to town. i tink.
yea. must have enjoyed themselves.
mish ya gerls. envy them.
they get to spend time wit their hubbies.
but i don't. im missing u hazwan.

alright. i knoe tis may sound weird.
cos yea. i just met him yesterdae.
but hey. afterall e tendancy to miss a person..
is more when they are away n far frm u..

well. im going out wit mommy tmr.
jb. gonna get some stuffs there.
thinkin of gettin sumthin fer my hubby.
yea. but b4 tt im going to e cemetry..
wit my family n aunts, uncles n cousins
naik lorry ler..i hafta wake up at 7.30 tmr. yea.
it's gonna b a long n tiring day..

erm. watched tv wit mommy earlier.
tv3. on a wedding but at e same time promoting songket.
i loike it. mommy said i cud have tt for my wedding.
gee~ hazwan's gonna marry me.
mom said i cud have a pelamin just like e one in tv.
yea. i wouldn't want it to have a modern look.
more of an ethnic n royal type.
i want my wedding to b somehow different from others.
ethnic n royal. lolx. sounds dramatic. yea.
but nah. tt's not how we planned it to b like.
hee. i shall share wit u ppl our future plans.

well. we have our 3,5,7,9,11 year plans.
hee. okay. so here it goes.
3 years from now.. we planned for an engagement.
n 2 yrs later. or 5 yrs frm now. marriage.
yea. n e 7, 9 and 11 year plans are basically child plans.
erm. i noe tis may sound kinda crappy.
n not suitable for a young girl like me.
but wat can i say. people have dreams.
yea. okok. as for e marriage. we made futher plans.
yea. we planned to get married on 24oct2010.
yea. e date we we got together last yr.
so it'll b 6 years of bein wit him on our marriage.
not bad.okok. so tt falls on a sunday.
e day before .23rd. ok as per normal.
e akad nikah thingy. ok. we planned to wear white.
ok. so later at nite. we'll b havin a dinner.
for dinner, we'll b wearin black.
yea. n e followin day. e big day!
heee. ok. we'll b wearin pink n later blue.
no no no. blue n later pink. yea.
gee. i loike it. but den again. he said there's gonna b rev ppl.
n again. not forgetting e teratais. yea.
how can they not b there. it's my wedding.
okok. and then he's gonna stay at my place.
yea. n we're gonna have our 1st child in 2012.
yea. hazwan wants a boy.
so we found a nice name.
yea. danni mikhail.
as for a girl, i wanted it to be maya iselda.
it's a spanish name. i loike it.
but hazwan said iselda sounds too western.
yea. does it?.
well so right now e girl's name is still pending.
yea. no hurries. we've got a long way to go. yea.
we're kinda advanced in future plans.i loike~. hee.

ok.ok.there2 cut it out.
runnin outta ideas.
its 0018hrs. gotta go to bed.
i wanna b an earlybird tmr. hee.

to my horny hubby hazwan.
im missin u alot.
dun tink of me too much.
remember its a family outing. njoy urself.
i pray for ur safety n health.
so do take good care of urself.
niteynite. n drim of us again.
i'm waiting for ur safe return.
i love you.